I’m Busy
I used to be busy. In my head, it felt like the buzzing busy signal we used to get before call waiting. When we were officially retired our busy looked like the above phone screenshot. It was fun to connect with family and friends and make new friends. It was fun to learn new things. Heck, I learn a lot about loom-knitting, felting, polymer clay molding, chair yoga. Gosh, there is no end to what you can learn on the internet.
But body issues crept in and brain issues. Yes, I am afraid that after losing both of my grandmothers from Alzheimer’s, my brain may be getting more than old. Eye-tracking makes a lot of reading, even on the internet, nearly impossible. It makes playing the piano nearly impossible. But I’m finding ways to do the things, all the things, differently. (Kindle text-to-speech, Audible, for instance).
I start to feel guilty about how I spend my time. How I don’t do the things everyone else is doing. I, especially, feel the guilt while playing games.
Okay, maybe not that game. More like slower, calmer versions of Tetris-like games or wordy games, or hidden objects. Mixed in with bingeing shows, writing/editing my books, reading books, knitting. Still, it felt I should be busy doing other things, that my body can’t.
Today I read this:
9 Ways to Keep Aging Brain Smart Check out #3! So these are helping my brain stay alive. Yay! Not worthless playing for no reason.
And since watching Everwood, I am looking forward to more of this:
I figure if I don’t try to start where I left off but go back to the bigger staves and letting my memory of the easier pieces help me relax and enjoy the stuff again.
Per Linda:
Today’s prompt comes to us compliments of Saumya. Thank you so much, Saumya! Please be sure to visit her blog to read her post and say hello. And follow her while you’re there!
Your prompt for JusJoJan January 26th, 2020, is “busy.” Use the word “busy” any way you’d like. Enjoy!
Darswords 
Oh my goodness, I’m sorry you’re dealing with all those issues. And who’s to say you should feel guilty for anything? I know I should take my own advice on this but, you ARE busy! You are doing what you can, and what you want. Who is to say that’s wrong? Now, maybe you mean you’ve let the housework sit or the yard to to hell, you may be unable to do those things, I’d just hire them out if you don’t have help to get them done. 😊
Have a good day doing what you can and like to do and don’t worry about it!
Aw, thank you.. Can’t afford to hire, so that adds to the guilt. But I do think I need to dwell on what I can do. Thank you for being so kind.
Sudoku and solitaire are my two big joys.
I like those, too! Not very good at the Sudoku but I like it.
I’m sorry you’ve got these troubles. Sigh.
I like Two Dots and Scrabble. But not as much as reading 🙂 Audible seems like a great tool for you!
I don’t know two dots. I like Scrabble, too, but my vocabulary leave a lot to be desired. I miss reading tree books! I keep trying.I finally have a small plastic magnifying thingie I use as a bookmark and I can read a few more pages than I could without it. I have no more troubles than anyone else, by the way. I hope to let folks see something they might not see in older people. We’re the same, just different.
Two Dots is addictive.
I am actually going to purchase a magnifying glass for small text. I use one at work, I should have one at home.
I don’t much think about age, but I do think about what we lose with what we gain as we go — so far, the eyes have it for me. I’ve had readers a long time, but in the last few years, the change has been dramatic. I see the eye dr in a month.
I’ll have to look that one up. I just don’t have enough hands to magnify and hold a bookmark to help with the tracking. I hope your appointment works out. My eyes have always been weird. Readers don’t work as my eyes are so different from each other. From the time I was a kid to now I use one for far and one for near. It’s just harder to adapt now.